Hellrider

New year, new chances, new forum... all we need is a new blog. After swiftly reposting all previously written blogs on the new forum, I felt the inspiration to write another one. After all, I’ve been thinking again, since lots of things have happened around me. Why do I bother to write on this forum, I hear you ask. Don’t bother to ask yourself such a question, I hear myself answer. After all, nobody that I know in my real life has the chance of reading my words, so it’s more like a diary than a blog on an online forum.

What made me write another blog and steal one of the Scorpions’ song titles as the blog title? My new year started out pretty exciting, with my first real date with a girl on the January 2nd. Afterwards it was nothing special, we came, were there and left. We went to a battle of the bands, with my cousin starring in one of the bands. We were both friends to my cousin, by the way. There was no atmosphere in which we could talk, or communicate in any other way. I was with someone I knew through some friends, but I’m free to state that she didn’t prove the girl I thought she was, and she was only 15 years old after all (my absolute minimum, being 18 myself). To make a long story short, a new experience, and a fear lesser. What concerns me more is that I haven’t spoken to her yet and I don’t want her to have false hopes or to be hurt.

Now we’re at the subject I might as well add that there’s a girl I would much rather see on a date, yet the trouble is, as always, asking her out. If you are a big fan of my blogs you would be the only one, but you would also have noticed that I’m more of the shy type of guy, and then you would understand my difficulties with such a situation like this a bit more. Of course being shy doesn’t mean I have an excuse for not doing it, I’m working on it. The biggest trouble is I don’t see her very often, since I only see her on Tuesdays, when she has guitar lessons just after me. Maybe knowing someone that way doesn’t tell anything, but I somehow feel there’s some kind of chemistry between us, when she smiles...

Anyway, we’re going off topic, if that’s even possible in my blogs. Let’s just state that going off topic in my blogs means that I’m writing about things I don’t want to, okay? What else is on my mind... oh yeah, college bores me now. I still think the material is interesting to learn, yet I don’t feel like studying at all! I’m in the middle of a few exams, and I just can’t get myself to take the books and study! Maybe because I’m way too busy in my head with the two previous subjects, but somehow I don’t feel like going on with it anymore. On the other hand, if I think about other things to study, I’d rather stay here. What could be causing a bit of the ‘unmotivation’ is that we’re handling Ovid’s texts now, and I happen to hate that guy.

Well, well, I guess I could blog for pages right now, but I’ll keep it short. Since the river of life is currently in a storm here, you can expect the next blog to come shorter than usual.
Call me the drama king, I don’t care. Everyone has problems in his life, but girls talk them through with their friends, and guys are afraid to show emotion, since they want to stay tough, the fools. However, I do have friends, but none I can talk to about these kind of things, hence my blog.

Thanks for reading all the way to the end, and if you wish to comment on my ravings, by all means go ahead. Any kind of comment is welcome, whether it is just a wish or some advise, please comment.