Hellrider

When something's wrong, in your head tonight, who're you gonna call? Rakion HQ Blog!!! So, here we are again. Or better, here I am again. On my own. And I do have perfect reasons for quoting not only Black Sabbath, but also Iron Maiden. If you know which parts are quotes by who, please say so in the comments.

Hell is right here on earth I say. Maybe that is not right. Hell is right there in your head. That's better. At this moment, hell is spinning around in my head. No, my brains are not on fire. There are a few things in my head that I need to write down. And they are aggressive in tone, so if you can't stand being confronted with my truths, I suggest you leave this blog now.

First, I can't stand all these people all acting like know-it-alls. And then I don't mean those nerdy people who correct everybody who is wrong, for there is a know-it-all inside everyone. Everybody knows it all. It's there in the Believe in God topic, it's either for or against God. It's either Salvation or Burning. Why the fuck can't people just be tolerable to someone else's taste, beliefs and opinions for once, without discarding it because it doesn't resemble yours for a 100%? For them it's all so damn dogmatic: Jesus is your saviour or you will burn. Never thinking they could be wrong.

I do. I have constant doubts. I never dare to state my opinion that fierce in a subject that sensitive as religion. When I first started the topic I hoped that there would be others having the same dilemma's. But no, there are just a bunch of stupid kids discarding religion as stupid and a few fools preaching that I'll burn in hell. I should have known of course, there was a reason I left this forum. Time to retreat once again to the background, the only place I'll ever be my entire life!!!

That brings us to the second frustration. I'm tired of sitting on this background. All my life I have been told to stay there, being pushed back as soon as I found a way to the foreground. I would gladly go back in time and do it all over again. Being not the one getting pushed, but being the one pushing. God that must feel good, mustn't it? The power it gives you when you kick someone who is weaker than yourselves. Gee that must be so much fun. NOT!
And of course I was never like that, I was too good for this world. But it doesn't matter anyway how you behave or what you do in life, as long as you take for granted what's in that BIBLE WITHOUT ASKING QUESTIONS!!! FUCK!

Are there reasons why people always must pull all the attention to their direction? When I face a problem, I try to solve it for myself, perhaps blog about it here, but that's it. I don't go whining in public about it, other people don't have a damn thing to do with my personal problems. Well, some people seem to disagree there and always need to be 'interesting'. Turns out that I'm boring as well. Why? Because I don't like carnival. I fucking hate that stupid feast. Who invented it? Oh yeah wait, it's a CATHOLIC feast. Feast or you will burn. Be stupid and sing along with those simplistic stupid songs, or you are boring! Can't anyone here be him/herself anymore?

I hate the fact that there's an unspoken law nowadays concerning behaviour. No you can't listen to good music anymore, no you can't be yourself. Everybody's gotta listen to the latest Top 40, everybody's gotta love dancing in the disco, everybody's gotta love carnival, everybody's gotta drink beer, everybody's gotta be spontanuous, talkative and popular. Well, I don't do any of those things, so I'm an outcast, right?

Well here's to all of you fuckers: I have the right to be different than everybody else! I have the right to listen, watch and do the things I want!! It's your right to reject me in your fucked up society, and later accept me as if nothing happened, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna accept you!

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